Exodus 34:29-35… I have some thoughts… 😆

In summary - Moses has received the Ten Commandments from God and is coming down from the mountain to rejoin his people. He doesn't realize it but his face is shining in such a way that the Israelites are scared to come near him. Moses calls his people over and speaks with them, then he shares the commandments that God has given them and covers his face from them. This is the pattern. Speak with God uncovered, come back with a shiny face, share the insight with his people, cover face, repeat.

As an ADHDer this sounds impossible to me. Ask Mina. I learn something, it rocks my world, the very next time I see her I cannot contain it. I have to share it, and I share it with this expectation that it is going to be as meaningful to her or whoever happens to be in my path as it is to me.
This isn't what Moses does - I imagine that Moses knows he has changed. How could he not? He knows that what he has learned effects his view of God, himself, and all of the people he is leading. I'm not sure if Moses would have blurted it out if people hadn't been actively avoiding him because of the change they witnessed, but this isn't a passive distancing. It is noticeable that he is being avoided so he invites those people closer. He speaks with them first and then tells them of this revelation.
He hears what they are experiencing, learns something about himself that he hadn't yet known, then shares what caused the change and what is now expected of himself and them. After that he hides it away. He doesn't walk around with it on full display as a constant reminder or as something to get used to and forget.
When he talks again with God he uncovers his face, as what is happening in him cannot be hidden from the God who is making these things to happen in and through Moses. Moses is enlightened mentally, emotionally, spiritually AND physically, returns to his people, they see that God is still doing something in Moses and he shares this knowledge with them, then puts it away.

Knowledge is most useful when needed. In elementary school we learn basic math, how to spell 2 and 3 letter words, how to interact with peers and authority, how to mix paint to get purple and green, and these things have immediate use to us. Later we start to learn more advanced concepts in math, and grammar, and instead of just mixing colors we learn about paint techniques, and how to navigate more complex emotions both personally and with others.
If you are anything like me, some of those things were interesting and some of them you cared about so little that you barely took notice of them. I personally had no immediate interest or use for Algebra or World History so there was no way I was going to elect to listen, reflect, or process that more than I was required to.

I imagine Moses would have known this too. He had insight that was deeply meaningful, enlightening, and practical to him because he directly experienced these moments with God. It is only as meaningful to the Israelites as it is useful or of interest to them.

When I have experienced change in a way that I am conscious of and can appreciate, I want to be like Moses is here in this passage. When I am overcome by insight, or emotion, or conviction - share enough to make sense of what noticeably is happening within me and how my expectations have changed, then move on. I don't want to hold back and keep it only to myself, but I don't want to shove it in people's faces or try to force someone to think or be something they have no use of knowing or being. I want what has enlightened me to be enlightening to others and it can only be so if they are in such a place as to be enlightened.

This is why the vast majority of the time the person standing outside the fairgrounds with a microphone, flyers in their hand, and a big loud sign is unappreciated. Maybe they have something great to say, but in that moment I do not care, I only know that it is a loud and obnoxious nuisance on the way to being where I want to be. When I unload all the implications of whatever topic has caught my attention this hour to Mina, or my family, or my closest friends, it's only useful if I understand enough of what it means to me to share enough of what it needs to mean for them.

Know your audience - when you are with God or someone who can appreciate the full breadth of what you are passionate and convicted about, let it all out. When you aren't, maybe just share what they need to know in order to make sense of you, not the essay. They can read it later if they want to, and by that point I might understand it better myself.