# Atheist v.s. Christianity

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#### Last Updated 2022/7/4

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## Final Conclusion
the truth doesn't really matter, the keypoint is what would you like to believe, because everything comes from the unknown

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## Experience
### 5/24 Online Coarse of Gospel Sharing
#### Note
- god has already given you all everything to be holy
- the roles which god gives people should be place into first priority, e.g. holy people
- because everything might be changed at any time
- but the Son of God is an essence
- and we can always find self-worth from this role
#### Conclusion
someone in meeting didn't open the web camera, but I can still observe something from the their face and the text on chat room, I feel Christians are really innocent. But it might be my misunderstanding, so I still need to observe for a while.

after my first contact, I consider this religion can really help people to be better, but it is still hard to convince me to believe it, cause some proper nouns are too illusory and unrealistic for me

### 5/27 Communication with Missionary
#### Note
- about missionaries
- man usually does missionary work for two years
- woman usually does missionary work for one and a half year
- God gives us the right of selection, though it sets a lot of rules
- three characters
- heavenly father: a father of everything, set a series of rules to let people be better
- Jesus: he ever had human body, so he can understand the difficulties and suffering people encounter, and he is our bridge to heavenly father
- holy spirit: it can be felt by people, if you stay with it, you will get a feeling of well being
#### Conclusion
every missionaries I met have lofty ideal, and I can say they are very "interesting" creatures, why do I think so? because they convince this religion can bring happiness to people, and they look like they can't wait to share their happiness to others

unlike the Christians I met in the past, these three missionaries are passionate about life, In contrast, I have long been disappointed with this world, but that's okay, maybe I can get happiness through prayer

### 5/29 Prayer Meeting
#### Note
- Mormons is really different from Christianity
- it is just like a kind of branch
- different interpretation and opinion of bible
- but actually we should interpret and define the meaning of bible by ourselves
- epidemic will influence a lot about missionaries' plan, and their schedule might be postponed
- holy communion is to heart-search our crime, and get the redemption from God
- "confidence" is about trusting the unknown and being hopeful
- God will not give promises according to our timetable, because God has its own timetable
- as long as the delayed promise does not affect our faith, the power of our faith will increase, and finally we will get the blessing of God (e.g. not our hope, is God's blessing)
- be quiet, modesty, and using sharing instead of teaching
- missionaries' knowledge might be not enough, their work is to advocate something God wants them to advocate
#### Conclusion
in the middle of the meeting, people sang hymns, just like reciting the story of God, I think it can make people more believe in its existence, and the other time is mainly to share stories and understanding of scriptures

recent prayers I'd done have taught me that not every good thing is taken for granted, that a bad day doesn't have to be that bad, but I actually feel like I was talking to the "nihility"

### 6/3 Meeting with Missionaries
#### Note
- source of Mormon
- some Christian believes Mormon is wrong
- some Christian believes Morman is correct
- no matter what they think, I need to give them respect, because God gives us the right of selection
#### Conclusion
actually, I already forgot something shared by them about inspiration by God, for me, it doesn't matter, because everything depends on what we believe, just like God gives us choices

by the way, the missionaries can not contact with everyone of the opposite sex, this rule is too strange for me to let me accept, and they really comply with this rule

### 6/10 Meeting with Missionaries
#### Conclusion
nothing special today, but I still pray every day

### 6/18 Meeting with Missionaries
#### Note
- praying before reading Bible, because we have to desire to believe to get much faith
- in the past life, we only have spirit and live with God, but in this life, we have physical body to learn everything. we went down to earth voluntarily, and after we dead, we will live with God again
- both heavenly father and Jesus have physical body, but only Jesus experienced human suffering
- everyone has different feeling when heavenly father contacts with people
- pending to check
- second Nephi
- the story of Adam and Eve
#### Conclusion
I heard a quite interesting story today, today there is a missionary came out to preach just because she passed the license test, and she is impressing for me because although she had a sad experience, she still had the courage to share her story with me, she is so brave, respect

### 6/24 Meeting with Missionaries
#### Note
- Jesus comes to earth to prove that if people redeem themselves, they can be resurrected
- time healing: just relieve the pain
- God healing: will be fully healed
#### Conclusion
[this chapter](http://www.limingyu2007.com/index.php?title=%E4%B8%AD%E8%8B%B1%E5%B0%8D%E7%85%A7/%E6%91%A9%E7%88%BE%E9%96%80%E7%B6%93/%E5%B0%BC%E8%85%93%E4%BA%8C%E6%9B%B8/%E7%AC%AC5%E7%AB%A0) is too weird, maybe I will not continue studying Morman, I don't think this information is logical

### 6/26 Prayer Meeting
#### Conclusion
the lecturer repeats the same topic too many times, I lost my patience in the middle of lecture, I didn't think he made enough preparation of this sharing, and it doesn't help me for my current state

### 7/1 Meeting with Missionaries
#### Note
- [Genesis Chapter 6](https://springbible.fhl.net/Bible2/cgic201/read201.cgi?na=0&chap=6&ver=kjv&ft=0&temp=-1&tight=0)
- maybe God exists, but I don't think God is perfect
- [another reference](https://www.bible.com/bible/116/GEN.1.NLT)
- how much Bible do missionaries study? (so far as I know)
- they don't fully understand all of the chapters
- in other words, they don't have their perspectives for a lot of chapters
#### Conclusion
nope