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title: Slipped Under Your Door

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# Slipped Under Your Door
**by Jamie Lynn Heller**

I don’t know what to do 
with the kettle bells of your words
because the curl of your hair 
just above your ear
makes my fingers itch
My thoughts spin around
the rollercoaster of my mind
but never make it out of my mouth
Their screaming stays with me
So this is how I speak  
In thoughts that come hours after 
In smooth lines strung with all 
that I wanted to say when I couldn’t 
While your quick questions skipped
across the pond of my stillness 
I turned inward
looking for answers
collecting in the deep 
hiding from prey in dark crevices
until breaking at the surface 
my response found the sun set 
the breeze cool
You were no longer there to hear  

Instead my voice traces itself
onto this thin paper
my answer
for now
for you to read

How can I think about a future
when I’m still busy fitting myself
into everyone else’s playlists
trying them on for size

There’s no need to respond

Or you can

Just know I’ll need time
to get into my wet suit
