# intro and stuff. hello!
(last edit: Sep 25th 2025)

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## hi, welcome!

You most likely reached this place through my neocities page since it's what I put in my discord bio nowadays, and I can't really think of other ways, but welcome to my more detailed about me, I guess!

(there's one on neocities too, I've no idea why I made two versions of my bio and change stuff about them every now and then, but I guess I just REAAAALLY like people to know about me.)
(actually, the one on neocities hasn't been updated in a while, but it's shorter and still mostly true, so read that if you don't feel like reading too much.)

Anyways...
Hi! I'm hoots, nice to meet you :) you probably got curious enough to come here, or was just bored, or something else, no idea.
either way, welcome to where I write a lot of stuff, A LOT OF STUFF.
they're all about my life and the people i've met, and the thoughts i think about, dreams i dream about, stories i've heard about.

I started journaling about maybe 3 years ago or more, it's pretty fun :P I like it a lot, and it's a good use of my time.

I honestly have no idea why i never dropped journaling, maybe it's because it became a form of self-expression for me, and a place i can pour my thoughts into without having to disturb other people. It's a way to cope with life for me.

of course i do have people to rely on nowadays, but most of the time i still prefer to keep it to myself since i feel like they have better things to do/i'm secretly disturbing them.

but yeah, journaling is my therapy :3 without it i'd probably have gone insane a few years ago, ahah.

secretly wishing more people i knew did journaling, maybe we could have deeper conversations.
i think, barely anyone i know (or just none) does journaling, as far as i know, i'm pretty lonely in this hobby :,)
but that's okay! I still write (almost) every day.

you probably know me (or not, that's okay) and maybe i'm always a pretty jolly and silly person around you, but this is where **things get a bit more serious** :o
in here you may not see things that are as jolly or filled with silliness, but instead more attempts to be honest towards my emotions.

this means: you'll see me be depressed! you'll see me sad! you'll see me angry!
you'll see me being a bit sad sometimes because i've never found love (and that's okay, too!)
and someone who i can be close friends with! (sadness)
WHAT TRAGEDY!

there may be sunny days, yes, but there will be just as many rainy days, too.
and i've accepted that.
because i like being honest with my emotions, although i can't be perfect at it and say what i want to say all the time (some thoughts of mine i'd rather keep hidden).

if you don't wish to see this side of me, that's okay! it's not up to me to decide that for you, and i won't even know who you are unless you come into my DMs and tell me you read my journals, no need to feel bad (not that i think you have a reason to anyway).

but, yeah! welcome to my journal page.
i'm not sure if i'd rename it after i finish writing this, but for now it's called the fortress of solitude, because i'm always very lonely.
although i feel less lonely when writing all of this.
it keeps me busy.

currently i don't really feel like writing another version of my bio containing my age and sexuality and gender and whatnot so maybe just read the neocities version if you'd like that. (but hey, i can at least tell you i'm a guy and i like guys and that's about it)

(i've pretty much deleted all the markdown stuff and rewrote everything from my last version of the bio here, guess keeping it short is better.
i could make it longer later if i wanted to, we'll see!)

hope you'll like my other entries, you'll probably get to know me a lot more better if you read it (or not! that's entirely up to you.), and if you ever feel like sharing your opinions or is mildly worried about me, feel free to check up on me! my DMs are always open.
(toaster_toast_toast on discord)

but yeah, thank you for reading! have a cookie.
:cookie:
take care of yourself for me!

-hoots