one scream and everyone falls into a state of panic.

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hey. I was just fisching today and my dog yelped and yelped and yelped, so I quickly turned over to look.
I'm not sure if he had a seizure or something, but it was frightening regardless.
twitching on the ground, like someone folded him outwards in half.

seems like he had one. nothing too big, apparently... just lasted for a while and my mom carried him to her bed and let him sleep there for a while until he regained the strength to walk.

he's sleeping under my table right now, with another dog.
read some stuff online, he should be okay.
honestly, we have no idea. websites could lie.

if he gets another one we'll have to consider going to the vet, at least.

just, all of this was very sudden. and really, I'm not sure if he's going to be still walking fine tomorrow or not.

I wouldn't say I was the best dog owner or a relatively good one, I just feed them food and water and clean up after them and give really good neck and back scritches.
I've just recently learnt to feed the other dog medicine through a syringe with no needle.

and today this happened.
it's well, a lot to take in, that's for sure.
the more frail something is, the easier it is for someone to realize their value.

but, things are fine for now.
guess I'm sleeping soon.

as for other things that's happened today, while I'm not that in the mood, I can still tell you about it.
although might be shorter than you'd expect.

in the morning, I got to hang out with byt3r for a little, although I haven't been awake for very long, so I was sort of just groggy for the whole call (guh, sorry).

after that a friend asked me for help with fisch.

this process took me pretty much 8 hours or so, but I got him what he needed. limited time stuff, man...
at least he's happy.

did end up going to the hotpot, ate a lot of vegs and meat, and ice cream.
all pretty rad.

that's sort of about it.

well, one last thing.
saw someone saying "the more I open up to people, the more I understand I shouldn't".

it sort of stings. not that it's directed at me, but I wish I was someone who makes people feel like they can open up to me.
maybe to some degree I am. people do tell me about how they feel and whatnot.

also I lied, there's another thing.
"It hurts to know that someone's so capable of being kind, yet their kindness goes to anyone BUT you".
I wanted to distance myself because of my own feelings.
yet, in the end I had to be honest.

because I remember this feeling all too well.
being chill with other people and giving a specific someone special treatment by not replying to them as much or just being not nice.

I refuse to be that kind of person.

but yeah, that happened.

well, I'm yawning now.
suppose I should get some sleep.

see you tomorrow as always.
take care.

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hoot
feb 8
2:50 am.

today squeezed a lot of stamina out of me.
perhaps I'll sleep for a long time.