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title: rise and watch the sun (feb 8)

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gotta choose some classes tomorrow or I'm COOKED

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hey, feeling better somewhat.
update on the dog: mostly bedridden. can walk a little.
still sleeps with the other dog.
we'll most likely get him to the vet tomorrow. dunno what happened.
sometimes I forget how old they are compared to humans.
he's just sleeping now. rather peacefully, perhaps.

yesterday I ended up letting my thoughts out honestly.
there were some thoughts exchanged and whatnot.
no arguments, which is probably a rare sight on the internet nowadays.
maybe it's not that rare but I find it hard to like, see arguments resolved peacefully on the internet.

not everything

still remember my last big argument that has scarred me.
but, I've mostly moved past it now.
changed a little, or by a lot, but part of me still remains.
sometimes I am still not sure if this change has affected me for the better, or for worse.
but, yeah. mostly behind me now.

hanging out with byt3r right now. 
it's always nice being around him :>
thanks bro <3

honestly speaking the fisch valentine event has been well, kinda weird.
it feels underwhelming somehow.
and the fishes aren't that rare but they're, really obscure with the catching requirements.
it's just, strange, I guess.

some other thoughts floating in this void of mine...

well, just now I saw a guy saying he's really young and like,  was already on his way to university.

one side of me wants to beat myself up for not being really dedicated or smart enough as this guy who I barely know.
that's well, the instinctual part of me, I guess.
the more emotional part too, perhaps.

the other, the more rational part... says that it's never too late to start and stuff.
plus, I barely know the guy.
humans have vastly different backgrounds, after all.
we all have our fair share of hardships and traumas that makes it hard to do things.
although I often feel like I have no excuse for not improving myself.

there are so many places I want to go but I wonder if I'll ever walk.

I mean, I'm in university, but my department feels like it's out of fashion and has a really low job potential.
but at the same time, people say language majors are rather adaptable.

and I have no idea if it's true.

well, anywho.
I said I was going to the market, and I'll most likely go now.
ran out of stuff to say, but my mood has been just, sort of weird.

I'll be okay.

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hoot
feb 8
4:03 pm.

swept off balance every now and then...
sigh.
wish I could hang out with my internet buddies irl.


