**LIVE A LITTLE**

Bad habits eh? Where do I start...I’ve got quite a few options to choose from this time around. Even though mine aren’t as “severe” or “unhealthy” compared to the very common bad habits of ours. Because I somehow keep my habits under control. Yet, they still do bug me. They make me feel weak, quite literally from time to time and sometimes just in my own eyes. Making me feel as if I have no control over myself. Like I’m not even trying to be a better version of myself, not trying to be Mr. Perfect. Just letting it be as it is, happy with my messy habits and lifestyle.

Even though I do know the answers and ways to get rid of these habits of mine, I sometimes just decide not to implement them. And I guess that’s what really bugs me, more than the habits themselves. Trying is key, the effort, giving it your all, that’s numero uno in my books. It’s a start at least, win or lose, whatever the outcome, that’s for later. If you’ve even tried once, then at least when the time comes, whether it be you questioning yourself or someone else doing the questioning, you can say that you’ve tried. And I sure as hell know that I've tried, but I guess a part of me just likes it this way.

Yet, the question in my head is, how many people do you know who have absolutely no bad habits? Maybe they do have bad habits, but are they the kind of people who give it their all every damn time in every damn category and aspect of life? Do such people exist? I don’t know about you folks, but no such name or character exists in my story, not yet at least.

My own “bad habits” are really easy to get into and also quite easy to get rid of, easy in and easy out. These habits don’t look quite “harmful” short-term, they surely don’t deal much damage either. But hey, I guess if we’re talking short-term, then almost everything and anything is far from being harmful.

The trouble really begins when these not so harmful actions turn into a common habit. When a cigarette a day turns into two cigarettes a day, soon enough you find yourself smoking one pack a day. Even if we talk fitness, healthy lifestyle choices right? But even fitness taken too far can be harmful, you have to know your own limits. You lift too much weight, and decide to wear yourself out every single day, stay in the gym for too long, whatever it maybe. Keep this up and you’ll end up dealing more damage than being more fit.

The habits of mine that I find annoying are a part of my daily choices and lifestyle. The first is choosing to eat junk food every now and then, which I know will maybe later on add a tad bit of weight and make me feel like shit. The second is choosing to sleep late. I do have to stay up late sometimes, but not always. So, even if I have the chance to get some extra sleep, I still choose to stay up a bit longer. Thinking to myself "no point in going to bed early, you’ll sleep late or end up using you phone anyways". Soon enough these small "once in a while" choices lead to becoming a solidified habit. Sometimes getting to a point where it starts dealing damage to our bodies and lives.

What I’m trying to say is, good or bad habits, whatever it may be, we need both. The good more than the bad, that’s for sure. I know I’m making some “bad choices” here and there, but I also know that I surely am the one in control here. Yes, sometimes things don’t end up as planned and ends up dealing a bit more damage than what I had in mind. Yet, I’m always READY ready to step back and make amends ASAP. You gotta live a little, right? Just cover your ears and keep walking. You can’t always pretend to be Mr. Perfect, I sure as hell can’t.

So, I’ll surely be keeping these minor “bad habits” of mine. I don’t have any plans on changing or getting rid of them, not any time soon at least. However, I do plan on keeping my eyes open, conscious, always the one in charge. Balance is what I’m looking for, stability between the good and bad. So called "perfection" can wait, as long as you're making progress in life, that's all that really matters.

*Sometimes you just gotta*...

> *"think a little less, live a little more"* - anonymous